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i'm trying to get use to the idea that i don't have to post a picture and talk about it every time that maybe i could use this like other people use blogs and just vent. at the risk of sounding like i'm trying to get sympathy i feel compelled to say that my father is having heart surgery. i just found out about a week ago. a week after my sister's wedding. he is scheduled for May 3rd. Ironic, huh? Regardless, i am still looking forward to my grandma's ninetieth birthday in the desert this month. i've never felt so swamped with things that i'm not even doing. it's not my birthday, nor my surgery but all i'm all stressed about it. wondering if distraction is showing in my work. i'm hoping not and now realizing i should probably be working on that instead of typing this. not very good about personal stuff so if anyone has read this far, thank you and i would appreciate you not confronting me. that you read this you have done more than enough.